Let me briefly reflect my life at age of 40 right now.. It just occurred to me through my FB friend in Spain this morning that my life evidently is being so boring and uninspiring that I am even discussed at myself.
I mean like what kind of full grown man at mid life laughs in tears watching Kung Fu Panda 2 movie and steals popcorns from his 5 year old son while he's distracted. That's me! I mean like the last party I ever attended was my 7 year old daughter's friend's princess birthday party and got booze by sipping Capri Sun.. That's me!
Only the highlight of my life in which I can give myself the highest honor is adopting the skill to cut and groom my own hair. That's about $20 savings every month I bring to this household, Baby! It helps to be dexterous to do so but don't try this unless the only party you will be attending is your kids friends birthday party sipping Capri Sun or you're in Army.
It doesn't look any better when I realize there's another child to be born who will bear my name. How I've put myself into this kind of life style will remain unanswered for many years to come because this truly wasn't the kind of life I anticipated growing up. But don't get me wrong here. I do not resent my life one bit. If it means to bring joys and happiness to my lovely children and my wife, then I must go on.
The question is now crystal clear. What must I give up to ensure my children to get more in return? Because you can't have it all. Anyone? :)
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